quarta-feira, 7 de julho de 2010
Kallen has to be my favorite badass female character. She rocks! ♥

Shinobu here, with teary eyes. ~
No, nothing happened. The reason why I can't hold tears is because I've been thinking about too many things. Like, what's the meaning of life, is it wise for me to study if I'm going to forget everything when I die or even why do people keep hiding in fairytales.
But what really made me cry wasn't the fact that I still don't know the answers. It was Suisei-chan. I wasn't expecting her to try to support me with all her will while I was crying.

Try to see it like this...you can think about those things because you are still confused, which is normal. But with the time, most of those questions will be answered. If you look for the answers now, you might look too much and you won't see the answers that are in front of you. So, it's better if you try to understand it slowly!

Oh, I also see myself as someone that only exists to be a weight in my family. So, I try to do my best in order to compensate a little...but, don't act thinking that you are only a weight. Just act and then see what you get. You might get happy, even if just for a little while.

I...don't really know what to say. Seeing that someone like her is just like you are, being all "smile and happiness" while you really are dying inside makes me...idk. Feel something strange. Guilty. Stupid for thinking that nobody could understand. Sorrow. Sad for not being able to help her more than I do.

Well, the other thing that I wanted to post are Epica lyrics. I think that they are important and will help me to show a few things.
So, this part, from Cry For The Moon:


Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale
Forever and ever.


Memorize it.
It makes me sad to see people that do that. But what makes me even sadder, is to watch me doing that.

Well then. Next (good grief. Edu follows me even in my blog!) is The Phantom Agony. Just posting the second part of the song, as the other part doesn't matter to this.

The future doesn’t pass
And the past won’t overtake the present
All that remains is an obsolete illusion

We are afraid of all the things that could not be
A phantom agony

Do we dream at night
Or do we share the same old fantasy?
I am a silhouette of the persen wandering in my dreams

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We’re all sadists

The age-old development of consciousness
Drives us away from the essence of life
We meditate too much,
so that our instincts will fade away
They fade away

What’s the point of life
And what’s the meaning if we all die in the end?
Does it make sense to learn or do we forget everything?

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We’re all pessimists


Those lyrics are more than enough to show what I'm currently wondering about. Of course, there are other questions on my mind, but...oh well.

I'm ending this post now, before I get even more teary or I start spouting the things that are on my mind now.

Buh-bye~, minna-san. Don't forget to sleep early instead of 5AM like I do.

Signing out while taking prints of Kara no Kyoukai 4,
Shinobu. ~

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