Just in case you're wondering wtf is that, they're Star Wars Spaceships. But of course you knew it, it's a great cosplay after all. *cough*
At least I've been busy and having fun. Mew came here on Sunday and today. She's also coming on Monday.
Thing is, she's awesome. She makes me laugh and she even pokes me. Besides, she's actually kinda good at gaming and she hates pears like me /intern joke on, so why shouldn't I be happy about it?
You know what I hated most? The fact that I watched Rec 2 and I couldn't sleep for two days. I mean, seriously! I watched the first one and had no troubles and after watching such weak movie, I couldn't sleep. I am ashamed.
But do you know the good thing of watching Rec 2 with Marg and Joris on Wednesday? The fact that after we watched Zombieland, which is now one of my favourite movies. It's just, epic win. If you don't know it, go watch it, seriously.
Also, going to the cinema with my classmates was just awesome. Freaking awesome.
We went to see "How to train your dragon" on Tuesday. The movie is just awesome and I sat next to Rocha and António, which means that I laughed the whole movie. Well, maybe not due to them, but thanks to a girl that sat next to Rocha and had a very, veeery weird laugh. She made my day, geez.
On the other Saturday it was Marg's birthday party. Even though I'm kinda late, I would like to wish her a happy birthday.
But you know what I hated most besides the annoying movie, Remember me? The fact that we were almost kicked out of the cinema. There was a stupid lady that called the security because we were talking in the break (yes, in the break!) of the movie and told him that we spent the whole movie talking. I mean, wtf?
And she even had the guts to say "stupid kids, if they want to watch a movie rent a DVD!". Seriously, now. Just remembering her face makes me wanna kick her.
But oh well. Overally it all went well, despite the fact that I felt veeery bad after riding the baloons the 2nd time. It was the first time that I felt bad after riding them.
For you who actually don't know what an "aerólito" is, it's a type of meteor (good for you I'm in science). XD
And moving on to the three of the most troublesome things I have to say.
First of all, I'm starting with the lighter of the three.
I entered Grande C. However, even though I already have the plot for the story, I can't help myself but avoid to write. I don't feel like it, I don't want to and to make it even worse, I have until April 30th to turn it in.
Let's just hope that a radiance of inspiration comes.
Second, I'm thinking of cancelling my 10th year and change the area. I don't know if I want science or not.
However, seeing how much my classmates are working and how much I like them...I can't bring the courage to do it. Not only for me, but for them. When I brought the topic up, some people were actually sad that I was thinking of leaving. Their faces reminded me of Vanessa's goodbye, if you want me to be honest. That actually surprised me as I didn't know I could cause an good impact on somebody, especially in a 10th grade class.
It seems that, after all, I still care about others. I wonder when will I be able to think more about me instead of others, geez.
Third...I'm leaving here a message to someone that isn't between us anymore.
It's someone that I knew since I can remember. As far as I'm concerned, I knew him even before I was 3. Mr Zé, the owner of my favourite cafe, proud father and husband and awesome dude, may you rest in peace now. At least your suffering finally ended.
This is it. Marta here is tired of this stuff.
Do you know when you say to yourself "I wanna go home now" when you're not home?
I'm saying it right now and I'm sitting in my room.
I feel like crying, after one year+ without tears.
Maybe I should just smash my head into the wall or something like that.
If before I was confused, then now I'm more confused than ever.
It's time for me to think what I want for my life. However...
No answers seem to come.
I want to thank Suisei, senpai and Lê for everything.
Although you say you haven't done much, what you've been doing means the world to me.
I sometimes wonder how would I be without you. The fact is, I wouldn't be.
All the times you listened, all the times you gave me advices, all the time we shared laughs...thank you.
They say that long-distance relationships don't work, but I don't believe it. It depends on how much you like your friend.
And you are all a proof of that.
So, until I decide some stuff...that's all, folks.
I'll be trying to be fruit other than an apple. I'm tired of being the same red, ugly apple that tastes the best but that nobody picks, so to say it.
(yes, this was somehow a dark, intern joke.)
Nbye! ~
Signing out while listening to the radio in her LG,
Shinobu. ~