You wouldn't know how I missed Takara-kun, haha. [L']
Shinobu here, finding things interesting. ~
Do you know what I find interesting? I don't think I am in the right place. Like, am I really meant to be in science?
While the question is still up in my mind, there are lots of issues going on now. And to help it even more, I'm full of reports and group works and tests in the last week of the 2nd term.
Do you know what I find interesting? The fact there is a rule that forbids tests in the last week of a term and still I have 3. Pretty cool, huh?
Okay, so maybe those things aren't that interesting. Still, that isn't all.
Do you know what I...oh, forget it. People are seriously stupid and low to make somebody that just healed from a depression cry. I mean, come on! Who the heck is that stupid?
I am upset as you might have guessed. First of all, everybody is telling me that I should be in arts instead of science. Yeah, so if I was in arts, what would be different? Would I enjoy being someone that doesn't know how to draw in the middle of awesome artists? Would I enjoy having no job?
I'm not thinking that I'm not in the right place due to what others say. In fact, I'm getting confused as I can't think of anything to do in science. In fact, I can't think of anything to do anywhere.
So you see, I wanted to be a doctor, or a vet, or even a nurse. Buuut, I'm afraid of blood. Stupid traumas.
Currently, I don't even know if I want to be a writer anymore. I suck at it, end. And although I'm improving somehow, it still isn't enough to satisfy me, geez.
About that rule that forbids the tests in the last week...I wonder why teachers never respect rules. I mean, there's one rule that gives them 15 days to correct tests and I still have to wait 1 month to receive my english test. Wtf?
I never had been so overworked. Still, it helps to think that we're almost in vacations again (if you can call 2 weeks vacations...).
As about annoying someone that just healed a depression...stupid 10º2 remembered to insult the FQ teacher and make her cry in the class. Are they just freaking retards or what?
Depressions aren't things you can heal in one day, but something that you can return to in one moment. Why can't they understand that?
So basically, I am losing my mind. Nowhere to turn, nowhere to hide, just come out and fight.
Oh well.
Still, there's something else I wanna say today.
2010 is definitely one of the worst years that I'm going through. Since 2008 that everything goes wrong, but 2010 beats the past 2 years. And you know what?
Even through this year sucks, my classmates can erase part of it. I can't imagine myself in another class. I can't even imagine anybody that it is to leave the class.
Science is definitely a hard area and that's why 3 of us already quit. Therefore, next year, there won't be 3 of us.
I hope that the rest doesn't give up. I hope that Inês gives up the idea to change to her best friend's school though.
I somehow think that I like this class more than the others I had because I'm more "mature" and your feelings are different and that shit. Still, mostly of my brain doesn't think that. I think that it's because this class is really the one that I always needed to have.
Needing friends? Needing jokes? Needing support? That's 10º6 for you.
And that's all I'm saying today, peace!
And that was when I realized that I'm really attached to 10º6.
(Intern jokes ftw!)
Nbye! ~
Signing out while saying "I'm Mussulini and Carlos is Hitler" with an Italian pronunciation,
Shinobu. ~
