I filmed them.
Seriously. I filmed Vanessa's goodbye in "Cá te quero", and we all said that we enjoyed her stay and all of those things and of course, lots of stupid things.
Nobody cried besides Mariana (even although António wanted me and Vanessa to cry too), but I really felt like it.
And you know why?
Because she said "thank you for everything we did in the class", while hugging me and truly smiling.
And you know why I'm saying this?
Because, after all the days that I spent saying "vacaaaations...", they finally arrived. And now, I'm really sad. Also, to make it even sadder, Vanessa is going to ESA, which means I can no longer bug her during lessons.
At first, I wasn't very troubled. I mean, we never really had a relationship, it was just pure stupidity. But now that she's really gone, you get kinda sad, especially after seeing the face she did when she hugged me. I never thought that she would ever do such face in such situation. She was sad, despite being happy of finally going to the place she always had dreamed of.
And you know what's even weirder?
Me, and I really mean it, cried. I cried when I got separated from them.
I still remember when I arrived the class, and I thought "oh no, this year is going to be so fucked up...I don't know anybody besides Mariana, Carlos and Elisabete, I'm doomed!". I remember when I got mad because I had to change seats and started to sit with Carla and with Vanessa. I remember when we did the first BG group work, when I was very nervous because my group was me, Bruno, Inês, Mariana and Tiago. I remember when me and Inês got in the same FQ group, and we were missing one person, and António came to our group and we were all nervous. I remember when Carla didn't talk to me and I was afraid of her. I even remember...I even remember when we went to the field trip, and Bruno fell 3 times in the same stairs.
I remember it all. I remember all that we did, because they aren't memories that go off after a few days. They are lasting memories.
And just as fast as this, 1st term is over.
Just like the old days of stupidities with Vanessa.
It's amazing that I'm even more sad now than I was when the 9th grade ended. This class really has a different way of acting, and caring about everyone. It's like, without one, we're not the 10º6. And believe me, it's the first time that I've ever felt that.
We are not heroes. We are not the ones you want us to be. We are not the amazing theme that pwns everybody. We are just a bunch of random people who doesn't judge others, and that loves you the way you are. We are just some dudes that like to joke around and to laugh. We are just persons who enjoy ourselves to our extreme, while helping everybody out.
And that's what makes us different.
If anybody has the power to stop the clock, then please, do it on the next term. Freeze the time and let our days last forever.
'Cause all that's good, ends someday. And for now, all I want to do is do enjoy the next years as much as I can.
"I'll lose my lunch friend so I'll stop eating and become anorexic!" - Bruna.
"Well then, I love you Vanessa." - Ana.
"You're a great friend, and a great girl." - Tiago.
"Vanessa, you need to come back to us." - Marta.
"Can't I speak badly of her? Oh well then, I hope that everything goes well." - Inês.
"We loved your presence in the class, even though you were late sometimes." - Gonçalo.
"You'll regret going away from me!" - Bruno.
"We like you a lot, and we're going to miss you." - Mariana.
"You that is watching this, you'll be missing us." - António.
"I'll come to visit you. I hope that you do the same thing though!" - Vanessa.
And that's all folks. Until the next term, that all I have to say.
I will spend the next few days playing Grandia 2, bugging my classmates and writing.
So, until then...
"This is not a goodbye, Vanessa. It's a see you later, because I'm still hoping to see you again soon!"
Nbye ~
Signed out,
Shinobu. ~
Sara ~, at
19 de dezembro de 2009 às 09:01